Sometimes you just feel stuck in life, like all you're doing is spending time going through the motions with no change, no dreams, and nothing to look forward to. I know we all go through these sort of life cycles, but all the raional in the world can't really make me not be in the muck of it right now.
I want to make a change, but I'm not sure how or what change to make exactly. There are times when I just want to say fuck it, pack up all my stuff and just go home and hide for awhile, burden my family for awhile, but then this intrinsic responsibility side kicks in and stops me. I hate that.
A friend of mine jokingly tells me "never happy" but maybe that is more true than I want to admit. I think sometimes I'd be happy if this or this or this, sometimes I do actually feel happy in a moment, and I can definately feel happy for others, but I rarely can say that I'm happy about many things or even sometimes a few things in my own life.
blah....this was all spurned by the fact that I really hate the pants I'm wearing today.