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I actually feel like this is some kinda of karma coming back on me for breaking the heart of someone who dearly loved me what seems like long ago.

Bitter, table for one please

You know, I'm trying very hard not to be bitter at 31, but I'm not sure I can quite manage it. I just received my second and a half rejection from another guy. And the funny part is, he's not that great of a guy, he isn't someone I would think to spend long term with or even share interests with necessarily, but yet here I am pissed off at being rejected once again. He chose the other woman. A married woman who lives 2500 miles away with a small child and a husband who has recently been committed to a mental institution. No really I wish I could make this up people, I can't. This I swear is insanity. I feel like I wasn't picked for the dodgeball game, I feel like I never win, I feel like it's unfair that life is so unfair. It's just not right.

One small step for man, one giant leap for mankind

Although my disapointment in myself and my own life has continued today in all facets, I will share a small tiny stupid victory. While emptying my trashes around the apartment today to take out to the curb, the small piece for a cord wrapping around my power cord fell out of one of the trashes onto the floor. I thought I had lost it forever and had become albiet stupid, alittle sad about that. But well there it was...

Disappointed

I see it's been more than a year since I've updated my blog. That makes me disappointed in myself, on top of the disappointment I'm already feeling today about myself. Life never seems easy why is that? I could use some stability in my life more so than what I've got now or what I've had in the last ten years. Enough moving and restructuring and starting all over again every three years. I'm tired I want to lay down.

sigh